the second and third - 2&3 - 23, isn't there something significant about that?
my father-in-law is dying and I am losing a good friend, a man I deeply admired.
I've switched to autopilot and my wife has had to be the stronger of us.
I don't grieve well and I do so silently, she headlongs into projects and gets everything done. my wife, my constant hero and I do what I can for her.
Eventually the words will come and for now I cannot convey the depth of my sadness. his wife, his daughter are in mourning's bondage and we are all walking with him to the end of his many years of struggle.
We go to hospice tomorrow - it is an unfortunate 2 hours away in a veterans home - he has lived there for the past 6.5 years.
It has taken me a long time to write this much. it is hard to lose such a good man.
I grieve
I grieve slowly,
quietly.
occupying the hours of
a day with meditations
of death and the dead.
often I consider my own death
and am not unnerved by it as
death is one end only.
it is ever the patient student
of the dead that practices life
so fully
as to die with ease.
- Hoc Scripsi
chicago poetry. poetry for a people. poetry for a moment. poetry to satiate the need. poetry of an american outlaw. poetry for the best words in their best order. poetry by Jhon Baker
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
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Very sweet. You are lucky to have had such a wonderful father in law.
ReplyDeleteThank you Ann, I feel the same way.
ReplyDeleteSorry Jhon for what you and your family are going through.
ReplyDeleteI guess the only thing you do do is be strong for your wife. She'll need every ounce of strength that you can muster for the both of you.
Good luck.
~Anthony
I'me very sorry you are losing your good friend and father-in-law and your wife is losing her father. I hope he goes with without pain.
ReplyDeleteJhon,
ReplyDeleteeach day I will include you and yours in my prayers to the universe. May the strength and light find it's way to you during this extremely difficult time.
Please take care of you..too..
Selah,
Lynne
Thinking of you and your family, Jhon.
ReplyDeleteI won't say "I'm Sorry" - but know that my thoughts and my good intentions are with you and will continue your way for as long as you need them.
ReplyDeleteTake care of you.