"Every writer, without exception, is a masochist, a sadist, a peeping Tom, an exhibitionist, a narcissist, an injustice collector and a depressed person constantly haunted by fears of unproductivity"- Edmund Bergler
I am forced to take today off from the typewriter and do other things. Don't take this as complaining, my distractions are human and interesting, thus may yield something fruitful when I do sit in front of the typer and write. I only comment on it at all for the simple reason that today I wonder if the creative drought has ended like I thought or does it continue even to now? I've certainly had greater periods of output and quality but isn't this getting into the semantics of what I mean by creative drought?
my eyes sting and are watering making it hard to concentrate.
I quoted the above as this fear of unproductivity that haunts me even at this very moment. Should writers be defined by their shared concerns and malady's, reading the above assures me that I am a writer - I will gladly admit to any of those and more!
at the track
I don't go to the track and so this
poem cannot get
neither do I run (cannot)
or watch horses and dogs
chase rabbits or carry little men
however, should I need,
there are countless OTB
establishments around and a track
not too far away
in Arlington Heights, Il.
- Hoc Scripsi
I live in Elgin so there is also a gambling boat nearby where I could go and blow my dividends or jerk off to the losing of heaps of cash while I witlessly hope I can win and become addicted to gambling. Another thing that can be added to the list is that most if not all writers have the addictive tendency, I mean this with much affection toward other writers and hope that they see the truth of these things and are not lying to themselves, but are these 100, truly without exception? Probably only 99 though I know of no exceptions.